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One Of The Most Anticipated #OwnVoices Nonfiction Books Of 2018 Heart Berries by Terese Marie Mailhot

It is a truly interesting experience, starting a book obliviously and only then realizing that the entirety of the publishing world is holding their breaths over its release. I requested Heart Berries ages ago, back when ARCs just surfaced, and tuned out of the circuits – only to remember it days before its publication date, and suddenly notice it everywhere. Which is great – cause I had the chance to read the book before I knew it had received so much praise. And it was a sobering, painful, and yet very important experience.

A book written by the indigenous, for the indigenous, Heart Berries is a raw, heart-breaking and sobering memoir of what it means to grow up as a poor, abused, robbed of her own culture native American woman who suffers from depression. This is like no other memoir of the Native American (or First Nations) Experience, for the simple reason that it won’t cater to your white-folks needs of painting indigenous culture with frills and sparkles, New Age and spiritual. The 21st century Native Experience is much different – and it is told the way it is. This is a story for you, if you want to hear it. But if you’re not indigenous yourself, it will be more like peeking through a keyhole than watching it enfold in front of your eyes. And that’s the way it should be. Because, I repeat – it’s a book by the indigenous, and for the indigenous.

Your Relationship With This Book

If you’re white, or a man, this book might not be for you. But it doesn’t mean you can’t learn from it. Or glimpse at another person’s reality. What’s more, it shouldn’t be for you. Like it or not, not all books are, or should be, written for the dominating majority. More than anything, this memoir enforces the fact that Native Americans (and First Nations people) need to write FOR THEMSELVES.

Heart Berries And Mental Health

Heart Berries is a monument to the hurt and the trauma that creates a mentally ill, suffering human being. Having really dysfunctional parents, and yet loving them – trying to remember them well, despite knowing society remembers them ill, and your own logic does as well, but not your emotions. Figuring out why you are where you are, and what brought you there. And that you were destined to come to that exact point – because society and order will not allow you to step a foot on a different path.

If you want to find out how a depressed, even a manically depressed person feels, you’ll find it here. Although, chances are, if you have never experienced anything of the like, you will not comprehend it. But you can try to believe it and grasp it. It might help learn how NOT to judge.

The Writing Is Art

The writing is very specific, raw, and yet beautiful. It took me about 20% of the book to get used to it, but once I did, it told me the stories in pictures, in scenes. It truly is the only way to write about manic depression. The most interesting thing is that this is precisely the way Terese intended it to be – if not for the afterword, I would have thought this is ‘just her being her’. But no – it’s intended, and it’s true art. The very contrast between the book and the afterword is what gives you the shock and understanding.

Heart Berries And The Native American Experience

If you’re looking for Native American wisdom or tales though, this is not what this book is about. The book is more about being an unloved, depressed woman who suffers from PTSD. But – if you know where to look for it, you will understand that none of this would have even happened, had Terese not been Salish and lived on ‘the rez’. Her parents would have not been emotionally (and financially) damaged, and she might have had a different childhood. Perhaps it isn’t for us outsiders to understand how this meshes into Native American experiences, but it IS for us to accept. This book isn’t “The Indian Experience”. It’s more like What You Come Away With After The Indian Experience. Or if you’re Born Into The Indian Experience. (I use “Indian” here only because Sherman Alexie has used this in the preface to describe the phenomenon!) So if you’re looking for tradition and heritage, you won’t find it. History though – you will find history here. And lots of reality. Brutal reality that you should not cover your eyes from. The author mentions in the afterword too, that Native Americans are not relics – and they should stop trying to be who they’re forced by stereotypes to be. Let them write their own. Talk about the way they are and not be romanticized. That is what #ownvoices is all about.

I can’t believe how much strength it must have taken to write this book for Terese. To open herself up so much. It’s pretty unbelievable, and incredibly worthy of respect.

But Beware Of The Triggers

I must warn though – if you’ve had mental health problems in the past, you shouldn’t read this. You might get triggered very, very easily. Depressive thoughts, experienced and suicide attempts are written in great detail, and if you are happy yet fragile, do not try to be a hero and read this. Anyone with a fragile mental state should think about what they’re reading, and I know what I’m saying from experience, sadly. So just take my word on it.

Also: if I am using names/indigenous terms wrong, please forgive me – I am from Europe and I’ve never even been anywhere outside of it. So anything terms related is purely because it’s out of my realm (and feel free to suggest corrections!)

I thank Counterpoint Press for giving me a free copy of the book in exchange to my honest opinion. You can buy the book here at Book Depository and buying using this link supports the blog.

Have you read Heart Berries? Have you heard about it? What is some of the fiction or nonfiction literature you’ve read recently on the topic of any indigenous people and their experiences?

I’m Evelina and I try to blog about books that matter, with a bit of fun there too! Disability and equality will be topics you see a lot, but there’s also a lot of scifi, fantasy and… GIFs. I’m also the proud founder of #ARCsAnonymous.

42 thoughts on “One Of The Most Anticipated #OwnVoices Nonfiction Books Of 2018 Heart Berries by Terese Marie Mailhot

  1. This sounds truly heartbreaking. I had a roommate who was from the Navajo tribe. We became very good friends. Ever since then I’ve had a very, very different outlook on all things related to native peoples. This books sounds like it would be a tough one to read emotionally, but one that’s worth the effort. Fantastic review.
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    1. Thank you, Chauncey! Oh, yes, definitely worth the effort. That’s really cool about your friend – I would be so interested to hear real stories from a perspective like that.

  2. Wonderful review, Evelina. I don’t know that I would rush out to buy a copy; I can only read so much on subjects like PTSD and depression before they start getting to me in an unpleasant way. But whenever I select a memoir I’m always looking for experiences that are completely different from my own, and I agree that Native American voices need to be more prominent in literature, so I’m going to be keeping this one in mind next time I go looking 🙂
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    1. Thank you! Yeah, I absolutely get what you mean – when I was maybe only a third in, I was feeling very sad about it, and it was making me feel down. But I stuck it out. However, if you’re sensitive, I do NOT advise reading it. It’s much too strong and too sad.
      But yes, in terms of voice and intended audience, this was an amazingly fresh breath of air 🙂 more like this should be written!

    1. Thank you! I am glad you loved it 🙂 and I don’t know, but rest assured I also wasn’t aware that it was so awaited 😀 but it was on the Goodreads newsletter or some such!

  3. Amazing review, Evelina! I love how you described this and how important it feels, so much larger than all of us. I know this book isn’t written for me and that’s fine. It has its own voice, just like the movement it stands behind. I cannot imagine what Terese went through and can only hope the writinh of this memoir has brought her some peace ❤️ What a brave, incredible woman.

    1. Yeah, you are right. Maybe wait for more reviews 🙂 it was very good, but I stuck it out only because it was an ARC. I was quite sad reading it. But I was also happy to read the afterword – the way the author talked in it was completely different, and you could see she has put time and space between herself and those events, and possibly healed as well. That made me feel better. The whole book is a work of art, in the sense of how she writes that kind of experience.

    1. Thank you, Kari! 🙂 Oh yeah, this is a strong, and quite painful book. If you are sensitive to it I think you should maybe skip this one. I was quite sad, reading it. Although it was definitely well-written!

  4. When reading this review I decided beforehand I would say ‘oh I don’t usually read non-fiction so I can’t promise I’ll pick this one up’ and then comment on the rest of the review and about the book. But then I read the review and even though non-fiction really ISN’T my thing, I might just have to read this one. I don’t think I have ever heard of an own voices indigenous work before. If there was a fictional one I might prefer it, but because I haven’t heard of one at all other than this one I will check it out! Thanks for introducing it to me 🙂
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    1. That’s really cool that my review made you feel like that! Yeah, this book is so… Hm, kind of literary, or even poetic. It could be fiction. The only thing is that it really happened!
      I have warned in the review, and I will warn again though – it’s very raw, and very painful. But if you can deal with that, definitely, by all means try it 🙂 I hope you enjoy!

  5. I hadn’t heard about this book – apparently I have been living under a rock! – but oh my goodness, it sounds like a wonderful, if difficult, read. I love memoir. I think it is such an amazing art form – and one that women are using BEAUTIFULLY right now to tell all these stories that for so long didn’t exist in the public consciousness.

    1. Yeah, that’s how I felt when I started writing my review, doing a little research and finding that so many of my friends have marked it as to-read xD but I guess we can’t know everything! (If you want to feel better, I missed the whole Elon Musk launching a car into space thing. I still need to look it up. Talk about living under a rock.)
      And yes! I also absolutely love memoirs 🙂 they’re so fascinating, cause you know this stuff has actually happened, and someone has displayed strength in those situations, for example. It really inspires me.

  6. Writing about mental illness is hard especially if it’s own voices. That’s wht I consider them precious gift to the world. Most importantly to other mentally ill people but as you say to everyone else too. A peek into someone else’s reality. A memoir by a mentally I’ll person is always a dear topic to me. If it’s beautifully written and about a minority group… a MUST. So thank you for this wonderful review !
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  7. Love your perspective on what this book as a whole means for Native Americans. Got to say that they had it extremely rough historically, and as a Canadian who has learned their history, I know how much was stripped away from them and how it is still, to this day, a constant battle to regain some sort of equality, or at least respect. Fantastic review, Evelina. Enjoyed reading this. 🙂
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    1. Oh yeah.. It’s got to be one of the nastiest bits of history. That, and slavery. Although, I guess if you start looking, you’ll find a lot of dirt in the course of history. The wars and all that… It’s just sad, isn’t it. But it especially tears my heart up about the natives, because they had their land and their culture taken from them. It’s so sad. It’s incredibly sad.
      Thank you 🙂 I’m glad you enjoyed the review.

  8. Wonderful detailed review Evelina, I’ve been curious about this book and have had my eye on it. This book sounds incredibly powerful and am putting a hold down now at my library, I definitely want to read it now after reading your review. I think that it’s interesting that the author notes how some Natives have internalized he stereotypes and racism and definitely want to read more. Thank you also for the trigger warning, I will definitely keep it in mind as I read.
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    1. Thank you, Jamie 🙂 yeah, I think you would enjoy this book. Definitely a strong one, and a good topic. Despite the triggers, I think you’d still bring back a lot from it 🙂

  9. From my (admittedly limited) understanding, non-Native people shouldn’t really use the word ‘Indians’ to describe Native American people (as opposed to people from India, who are Indian,) – it’s seen as a racial slur.

    I figured I’d let you know, since unless you’re quoting directly, it’s not really a word for us to use. I’m not criticising – just informing! 🙂

    I hadn’t actually heard of this book before – it sounds great! 🙂
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    1. Yeah, I always wonder about that too, since I’m from Europe, I’m quite far removed from these things. I’ve decided to go with ‘Indian experience’ though because that’s what they use in the book and in the preface though. But I’m puzzled as to which one I should use cause there are just so many terms xD

      1. I have a few indigenous mutuals, and read the blog ‘American Indians in Children’s Literature,’ so – just from what I’ve picked up – it’s best to make it clear when you’re quoting from #OwnVoices people 🙂 Just a note for the future! 🙂
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  10. I haven’t read non fiction in like forever but this review makes me positive about Heart Berries! I love when literature, especially ownvoices and memoirs, focusing on mental health and not romanticizing any of it. I mean, what’s important is to see the brutality instead of closing our eyes to the hard truth. This sounds like my cup of tea though I think I might want to wait for a time when I’m best willing to divulge myself into a truly depression oriented indigenous read. Lovely review, Evelina <3
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    1. Heart Berries reads like fiction, though! It’s like… Not that kind of non-fiction. It’s basically someone’s diary, or letters. And the writing style is not matter-of-fact at all – in fact, the author even states that it was intended as art 🙂 so in that regard, you definitely won’t be bored 🙂

      And yes, I think you would truly enjoy this! But yes, definitely wait for a season of good weather or something, because it’s not one of those easier reads 🙂

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